MargoNatalie

Musical Memories

2006-11-06T09:10:00Z

We all know how I feel about music. I love it. It touches me in ways that I have never been touched, by anything or anyone. Its always there for me and always knows how I feel... (I could go on and on but I'll spare you all, LoL).

As we change our music changes with us. I saw The Devil's Rejects at Dan's house last night and not only did it ROCK OUR SOCKS but it reminded me of my Lynyrd Skynyrd days. I miss those days. And to tribute my love for them and Lynyrd... I put it up on myspace.

P.S. I (also) Love Dan's Warm n Fuzzy Home! Yes Dan, Even When Its Cold, Because I Get To Nuzzle under "My" Covers, TeeHee (Inside Joke). Spanx for the invite DannyPoo ;o*

Real Friends Vs. LJ Friends

2006-11-05T14:19:02Z

Soo what is up my people? Hommie M in the hizouse, LoL. Ok Ok, for real, how is everyone? I'm good... lots more to say, but I realized something just now... I've been posting up a lot more "friend only" entries. Soo if you aren't my friend on LJ then you probably won't get to see them. So if it seems like I haven't wrote in a while, most likely I did but its "friend only".
For those of you who check up on me, "just to see if I'm alive" (of course, ONLY for that ::Giggles:: ), You know who You are ::Wink:: I guess you might just start having to pick up a phone and, omg, Call Me. LMAO! Yes people, this is an amazing invention, the telephone. People tend to use it when they want to know how other people are doing. Don't give me none of those excuses "I was too busy" or "I didn't want to wake you up" its all BS. My cell is on 24/7 for all of you who supposedly didn't know ;oP

I think my point is now made and that concludes this session. Moral of the story: No Excuses, If You Care, You Call!

Much Love To You All <33

P.S. I was thinking about going to Staten Island Mall this weekend, doesn't look like it will happen :o\ Eh, maybe next time... there is always a next time :o)

New Old Time With Dan

2006-11-02T23:59:11Z

Dan invited me over last night. It was just like old times. I missed that and I had a very nice time. I hope we do it more often.

Jimbo To The Rescue

2006-10-23T23:33:14Z

I called a few Doctors and Places. Five to be exact. One didn't take my insurance, the others said they would call me back and the last one had a recording to call back during business hours.

Other than that I Spoke to Jim. He is going to school to become a counselor. I didn't know that till he told me, After I went off on how counselors suck ass, LoL. Sorry Jim.
Anyhoo he tried helping me through some of my problems but its no use. I'm jut so tired from it all, that at this point all I want to do is cry. Even as I typed to him I couldn't help but feel the tears trickle down my face.

Is this just my typical "depression phase" that I go through at least once a year? Or is it worse... is my life really in the shitter? Who knows... all I want to do is sleep.

As the tears soak up into my pillow, I'll fall asleep and put it all behind me.

Goodnight.

Nicky Boy

2006-10-22T22:23:25Z

Jared and I went to Connie's today. Nick was lookin good. As Jared and I were eating I had asked him "hey, whos the boss around here?" Jared says he wasn't there at that moment, and when the "Boss" isn't around, Nick is in charge. I was Highly impressed and proud of him. Once we were done eating I had asked Nick if he lost weight, and he looked happy to hear such a questions.

Its nice to see Nick happy. I enjoyed it.

Happy Nick = Happy Margo

My "Big Black Pants"

2006-10-19T04:28:53Z

I Miss Them Oh So Much! ::Siffles::

Cozy!

2006-10-19T03:01:11Z

I just saw a Cozy Furniture commercial and it made me laugh! Brought back memories of that guy with the lisp... but they changed the commercial and took him out. Geee I wonder why, HaHa.

Now I have lil-George's voice saying "COZY" over n over in my head, LMAO!

Cozy!

Bed-Thoughts

2006-10-18T07:40:33Z

Welp, "BedTime" came and went. Its over 3 hours past that. I hate it when I have time to think, especially at night ::Sigh:: I need to get this song outa my head, heh.

On another note, I'm going to be sleeping at home A LOT more now. Jared's mom had a another mood swing and I just can't deal with it anymore. If anything I'll invite him to sleep over my house once n a while. Once we move, it'll be more often.

Margarita called me today, thats a whole other story I don't feel like typing. I then called Alex and caught up with him. He thought I was with Jared for 2.5 yrs already, LoL. He is a nut, but a cute/funny nut ;oP

I was going through my cabinet where I keep my contact lenses and my old pairs of glasses. I opened up one of the cases and saw the broken pair, which I still keep b/c I Love(d) them sooo much. I wish they didn't break :o(

OK I'm gonna try to fall asleep again. . . nighty night love bugs <3

Yummy Choy

2006-10-18T03:49:02Z

OMG is my tummy happy! For dinner tonight, I made a Szechuan Stir Fry (Chinese) and there is no word to describe its yumminess! Also I descovered a new veggie, which I decided to throw into my "invention." Its called Bok-Choy, its the Chinese version of cabbage. The best part (other than the taste) is that its FULL of vitamin A and C! Its also a good source for potassium and calcium, TeeHee. So not only is my tummy happy but its feeling oh so good!

If you're curious - 1/2 head Bok Choy:
Calories: 50
Carbs: 9 gm.
Fiber: 4 gm.
Protein: 6 gm.
Potassium: 1060 mg.
Vit A: 250% Daily Value
Vit C: 320% DV
Calcium: 45% DV
Iron: 20% DV

A Day Of Shopping. . .

2006-10-17T22:22:32Z

OK I'm finally back. My mom and I did some major shopping. We bought a bunch of groceries but more importantly we got SHOES! LoL. I bought a pair of sneakers with an army style to it, very nice. I also bought a pair of converse boots, sooo hot! They were both on sale so I only spent $200, Woot Woot. Luckily my mom lent me the money and even though she doesn't want it back I want to give it to her back. Fortunately, I just checked my account and the payment I was waiting for is pending. So it shouldn't be long before I have the money. Woot Woot!

OK I'm starved, I've been running around all day that I haven't had time to eat until now.

Laterz Loverz ;oP

Unveiling

2006-10-17T16:24:27Z

The unveiling of my Myspace page was yesterday. I'm excited, I love it. Anyhoo, my mom has the day off from work so she is picking me up from Jared's house right now. I'll write some more later. TaTa For Now Lovelies

Money Money Money

2006-10-16T12:40:31Z

So I was looking up those Ebay auctions for the Easel I wanted and I finally found one I want to bid on (a month later?), LoL. Anyhoo, the auction ends in a few hours so I'm getting prepared. I went onto my online bank account to see if my next payment came in, and of course it didn't. True, unlike me, most people don't take care of their debt ASAP. I guess I'll have to write to the seller (if I win) and ask for an extension on the payment. But I hate to have to do that b/c I won't get positive feedback. We'll see how it goes.

Other than that, I had a gazillion things running through my mind last night, but for once in a very long time, I didn't have a bad dream. Well, I can't remember my dream really, but I rather not remember than remember a bad one. I was going to come on here and write out my thoughts but the bed seemed to have glued itself to me so it was kinda hard to get up ;oP

New day today... not sure what my plans are. I'm going home, I know that much. Maybe I'll clean my house up a bit, make my momma happy. Then the typical daily "look for jobs" routine. I guess I'll play it by ear from there.

Tata lovelies :o*

P.S. I dunno if you noticed the time, but I'm getting my sleeping schedule back. Awake by 8am in bed by... 10pm?

TGI Friday's On A Saturday ;oP

2006-10-15T20:40:49Z

So last night I thought I was just going to play it cool, but next thing I know I'm getting dolled up and goin out for drinks. My big bro Darren, his GF Amanda, Jared, Nick, Zack, and I all went to TGIF for some drinks. I had a blast, they really "club up" the bar area. The music was great, I'm gonna ask Darren if they get a DJ b/c I want some of that music. I also tried one of the new appetizers, the string beans, and it was fuckin awesome! You can really taste the grease and fat clinging to your arteries, LMAO. I only had a few, I couldn't allow myself to have to many.
Anyhoo, after a few drinks, many laughs, and much talking, we split up. Dareen and Amanda went home (from what I know), and the rest of us walked around. Zack was really funny, I think Nick is a good influence on his humor. We ended up at a 24 hour Dunkin Dounuts where we had coffee and munchkins (thanks Zack, TeeHee).
I ended up at Jared's house, passed out on the bed at about 4am. I think I did good considering my normal bedtime is now 10pm. They continued to Nick's house and the next thing I knew its morning, LoL.

Today Jared and I are going to Nick's pizza place where he is letting us make our own pizza. Jared is very thrilled by this as he has wanted to do it for some time now.

On another note, I checked my myspace to find some weird-ass messages probably sent by a hacker who went on my friend's page. Eh, no biggy, I called my friend up and told him what happened, I'm sure he will figure it out, or just change his password.

OK I'm off for now, tata and Much Love <3

Yesterdays Plans

2006-10-14T21:04:06Z

Yesterday was a good day. Jared and I cuddled all morning, we even ate breakfast in bed, TeeHee. Afterwards we walked to Kings Plaza and did some shopping. The whole way there we engaged in deep convo, which was really nice. We haven't done that in a while and I liked that we could do it without getting angry/touchy towards eachother. After the mall, we went to KPD and had lunch. We then walked back to his house.
On our way back Just, Jared's brother, called his call and told us he and his GF r goin to a bar and we are invited. We had to rush b/c it was short notice. Long story short, he picked us up and then we picked his GF up from work in the city. The place was Crazy hot. I wouldn't really describe it to be a bar, although there was a huge bar there... it was a cross between a club, bar, cafe. The music was pumping (and great), the bar was Beautiful with a tropical fish-tank right above it (took pics). We sat down at a table and had dinner and desert, great food.
Jared had an allergic reaction to something (poor guy). He ended up taking 2 glasses full of ice to cool his face off ;oP

:
Fishtank/Bar:

Allergic Jared:

Some Awesome Lighting :

Artsy Lighting Pics, Ala MargoNatalie ;oP

Last but not least, I'm still getting a hang of this camera so sorry for the fuzziness :

Taking those pics reminded me of how much I wanted to buy a Digi cam... I need to get back on that... but I'll probably end up getting an easel first. Can't wait!

After-Mall Rush

2006-10-13T22:02:12Z

OK so we were on our way back to Jared's house when his brother calls us and says he is taking us to a bar tonight. We are in a major rush so I'll tell you guys all about it when I get back (or tomorrow if its too late). Either way I wanted to get on here and say "Woot Woot! Bar Time. Wish Me Luck With Justin, TeeHee."

Oh Justin is Jared's brother... more on that next time ;oP

Much love to you all and I hope you're having a good weekend too :o*

Today's Plans

2006-10-13T17:29:30Z

I just finished making breakfast for everyone. Jared and I are getting ready to go to the mall. I'm excited, I haven't been to the mall in ages. Anyhoo, after that I think I'm going home to cook for Shabbat dinner and after dinner I'm going to make some phone calls and see whats up.

Tata for now my dears ;o*

Moaning Too Loud?

2006-10-12T00:35:06Z

**Warning** This entry involves sex and myself... if you are a family member I suggest you look away. Hey, I honestly don't mind, I have nothing to hide, but that is exactly why you should look away, I "tell all" here, haha.

Jared and I are cooking dinner and the neighbor just knocked on his door handing him a Thank You note. Confused, we opened it to which we found:

"You are such good neighbors.
I would be very grateful,
if you don't mind keeping
The volume of The TV low after 10 PM
I Thank you in advance
for giving me The gift
of a good night sleep.

Your neighbor,
Dova"

Me and Jared look at eachother since our, err I mean his, room is the one closest to her Apt. We are all "noise after 10?" He looked at me and said "I go to work after 10, that all on you" I said "I go to sleep when you leave since I wake up at 7-8am." We thought for a while since the lady said its been going on for the past month... and then we realized! The only time after 10pm that we make noise is when Jared comes home from work at 12am and wakes me up for some sex, hahaha. I can't stop laughing at this revelation. He is all "Hey, its all you, you Are loud," and I'm all "Well if you didn't shove it in me then I wouldn't scream," I'm still laughing as I type this btw.

He just added "We are gonna have to put a pillow over your head." I guess he is right since he can't help that our sex is that good... and when its good, I can't shut up, haha.

New Apt. Galore

2006-10-11T01:05:21Z

So I just got back and HOT DAMN was it amazing. Everything from top to bottom... from the stairs outside as you walk into the building, to the lighting in the hallways. Absolutely gorgeous! Unfortunately, I was SO Dazzled and Amazed that I totally forgot to take pics. But you can be DAMN SURE that I will take em once we move in. They said the building should be ready within 6 weeks. After all, everyday that goes by the owner looses money.
I really can't find the words to describe the beauty of the place. Its breathtaking. Oh and did I mention that the location is perfect to? Its perfect for my mom because it close to work, its good for me cause buses and trains are walking distance, and its perfect for Mikey b/c we have a parking spot (garage).
I'm hanging out with Darren's Amanda right now, I told her all about it. I'm debating if to go to Jared's house tonight or tomorrow... he invited me over for the week. Woot Woot! TeeHee.
Either way, once I get back I'm going to start packing.

Weee

2006-10-10T21:08:08Z

In Exactly One Hour And A Half I Will Be Checking Out The New Place We Are Moving To (G-d Willing). I can't wait! My mom and I are going there to pick out which place we want. Its a new constructed 6 Apt. Building. It has a cozy new elevator. The owner was going to sell all of the apts. (thats how valuable it is) but after selling 4 he decided to to rent the last 2 out (especially considering my mom is liked and we are looking for a new place ::Wink::). We are going to choose which one we want today, Yay!
I've never lived in a place that was just built... ALL NEW! Whoa! I'm so excited! OK I'm going to get ready now... I'll let you guys know how it went when I get back. Wish me luck!

Much Love To You All! <3

A Trip Down Memory Lane

2006-10-10T18:36:35Z

I just finished watching Click. A great movie with a great song in it (Linger by the Cranberries). I got on Jared's PC right after (now) and DLed a bunch of Cranberries songs. These songs all triggered a memory. Ginny Ginny Gin Gin, as I used to call her back in HS. I miss those days... my HS days. We had such a secure click of friends. I'll never forget that summer night we all hungout and we all agreed we were like the show "Friends," haha. I mentioned that we better hold onto those days b/c we would grow apart after HS. Of course nobody believed me, they just called me a "depressing party pooper" ::Giggles and Sighs:: Ah yes, the good ol days.
Oh gosh we were so close. I remember when she went off to rehab. G-d I cried my eyes out. I would spend hours everyday in her room... just trying to remember the good times. I wasn't allowed to speak to her in any way, even though I Was one of her good friends. I remember going to Garettsen (spelling?) Beach and "rescuing" her from all the drugs. She slept at my hosue cause she didn't want to face her mom. I loved being there for her, doing the right thing for her.
Yeah, I miss Ginny and her crazy ass. I still check up on her from time to time and I'm glad to know she is doing alright. Even though someone might "cross" me, it doesn't make me stop caring about them. After all, we are all human aren't we? We all have our insanities and crazy lives. I'm sure you all are lost...
To some it up for you guys: Ginny and I were close friends, at least I'd like to think so. I cared about her a lot and even went as far as callin her "sis" from time to time. She did a few things I don't care to repeat as its in the past. Our friendship ended quite a few times, but I kept giving it more chance cause I knew she had it in her to be a better friend. After all, don't we all, if we truly want to?
Anyhoo the last time we made up, I was very hesitant and I gave her a hard time... but she swore on Melody's life, so I accepted. Melody is the most beautiful baby ever, she is her daughter and my "niece" (not blood - but I still love her). Everything was great since then, I was confidant in our relationship. After all, there is no bond stronger than a mother-child bond, and she DID swear on her baby's life.
Unfortunately, there were some complications down the line. Dave came back into the picture and he, his friend, and his mom were giving me a hard time. Ginny and her BF at the time were sticking by me, and I by them. We all kept eyes and ears out for eachother. They told me things the "bad guys" were saying behind my back and therefore I did the same for them. Unfortunately, Ginny told her mom some things (I'm still not sure of the whole story) that made her mom ban me from the house. I don't like when people think negatively of me, especially when I strive to make a good impression and make everyone happy. I was feeling uneasy with her mom from before that, now I can hardly look at her.
I felt betrayed by Ginny, and we haven't spoken ever since. I'm pretty sure she has some reasons in her head as to why she should be mad at me, and I would listen to them, but thats up to her at this point. The reason I say that I would listen to her now is b/c I recently read on her blog that she is seeking mental help and that she has discovered that she is Bi-Polar. I'm happy that she finally can come to terms with it (as I always kinda knew she was, but was too scared to tell her) and that means she is taking steps to better herself. I'm very happy for her and Especially for Melody. If Ginny can find the right combo of meds, it will be better for herself and everyone around her. I just hope she doesn't give up on it, considering it can take up to 4 years for a person with Bi-Polar 1 to find the right combo. I know this b/c Jared's mom has it, and the stories between his mom and what I know from Ginny's past are Crazy similar. Luckily her doc found her the right combo only after 2, and she is considered lucky.

As for Ginny, I can only hope that she will write again sometimes soon. Incase you guys are wondering why I just don't contact her, I tried writing her on her B-day, but that is when I found out she blocked me. So thats that...

In Memory Of The Good-Times With Ginny:

Memories. . .

2006-10-10T03:14:39Z

I just came across some old pics of myself (thanks to someone who saved them, they know who they are).

Anyhoo, in one of the pics, you can see my artwork framed on the wall behind me. That made me think "OMG! MY ARTWORK! I WANT IT BACK!" See, I usually wouldn't take a gift back, but considering the situation and the nature of the gift... I think I have a right to ask for it back, don't you?
Maybe I should elaborate: Everyone knows the history Dave and I had, from previous posts. Well, he cut me out of his life as soon as he met this new girl he is with. Although completely cruel and hypocritical on his part, that is what he wanted and I can't change that. I keep telling myself that if a person doesn't appreciate me enough to stand up for me (like I did for him when it came to Jared) then I shouldn't even care about them. But that is easier said than done (to stop caring for their well-being).
ANYHOOO, I gave him a few beautiful artworks of mine (while we were together) that would be GREAT to add to my portfolio. I haven't asked for them back b/c even though we broke up he still cherished them (as we were still friends) and said he wouldn't throw them out. HOWEVER, with this new girl in his life, if he is capable of just cutting me out so cruelly, without warning or anything, than most likely he will also allow her to make him throw my artwork out.
Considering that I am shocked over his actions, I can only imagine that he already threw my artwork out and to be honest, its making me cry at the moment. I really cherish my work and to know that someone might just throw it out, without a second thought, hurts! ::Sniffles::

I just tried calling him, to ask for it back, but I had no luck. I had to block my number b/c I didn't want her getting a hold of it. I don't even know her, I have no ties with her, yet as soon as she got a hold of my Email addy she wouldn't stop harassing me. To top it off she Email Jared (who REALLY has nothing to do with anything), telling him she is "getting me back" (for what? I still don't know). From that alone, I have collected that she is one nasty person. I haven't done anything to her... I don't know her... So I don't understand what her problem is.

::Sigh:: I don't know what to do, any suggestions guys? I really want my artwork back :o(

The Land Before Time

2006-10-09T19:54:13Z

I forgot how good this movie was. Its on HBO right now and since there is nothing else to watch I figured "what the hell". Funny part is I actually shed a few tears when Little-Foot's mom died, HaHa. I'm such a dork.
Anyhoo, Dan, Jared and I hung out earlier. We went to visit Nick at Connie's and while there picked up some pizza. Then the guys walked me home where Jared went to the gym and I hung with Dan (meanwhile). We talked for a bit. I basically updated him on what was going on in my life.
I felt a little bad b/c there wasn't much to do, but Dan seemed to be in a "different world" anyway. He listened to his music (mp3 player) while laying on my bed and I browsed the net while "checking in on him" from time to time. It was nice to have him around, even if we weren't interacting the Whole Time.
I think I'm gonna make me a salad and finish watching the movie. . .

Much Love To You All :o)

Hectic Blur. . .

2006-10-08T16:04:19Z

Yesterday was a crazy day... yet, I can't remember it much, heh. I remember talkin to Dan before I passed out. He sounded good. I mentioned how beautiful the moon was tonight. He said he was upstate takin some pics (not of the moon though, LoL). I spent the night at Jared's, I didn't sleep well though. I remember tossing and turning a lot and then waking up with horrible back pains. I wonder what I dreamed about...
Hmm, I remember Dave being in the dream... but thats all I remember. I guess thats all I need to remember really. That explains it all huh? heh.

I just changed my top 8, and I'm hoping it stays that way for a while ;o)

Ok, I'm off to check on my easel auction.

Much Love To You All ♥♥

Morning Milk. . .

2006-10-07T09:21:41Z

Wow, I was so tired last night (after everything). I didn't even eat dinner I just did the prayers and went to bed. I was out by 10pm, LoL. But that is the reason I'm up now (at 5am).
My tummy is growling, it sucks. I would have some cereal (I don't want to eat heavy in the morning) but of course my family forgot to by milk as usual. Its quite annoying that at Jared;s hosue I have all the milk I want but no cereal, and here I have all the cereal I want but no milk. Ugh.
I'm gonna wait for stores to open up and I'll take a walk. I hope I have some money on me. . .

Busy Busy Busy. . .

2006-10-06T19:05:12Z

Seems like I'm on fast-foward today.

Things Already Done:

Made Jared, His Parents, And I some breakfast
Cunoodled with Jared in bed for a bit (not long though)
Meanwhile, made some calls to my family
My lil bro Mikey picked us up from Jared's house
We went to my mom's store where we picked up groceries
Went home (Jared went to the Gym)
Put the groceries away
Made my brothers and I some lunch
Checked my bank accounts (I'm glad to see that Everything is in order)
Started sifting through some bills

Things Still Left:

Finish paying bills
Check info about Apt (moving)
Talk to Super
Check for a Job
Check Ebay for pending auctions (Easel and art supplies, WOOT WOOT! Can't wait!)
Start Shabbat Dinner
Take a shower
Make the table
Serve dinner

And I have to put some more money in my WaMu account in a couple of days :o,